…is interviewing celebrities I like. Because in addition to my regular interview jitters, I also get the “please don’t let me act like a jerk in front of one of my idols” jitters.
And then I act like an asshole.
This happened to me a few weeks ago when I had to interview a comedian who I love. I’m not going tell you who it is (I do not need you guys to seek that interview out, thank you), but for the purposes of this entry, I’ll pretend that I interviewed someone slightly similar: Patton Oswalt.
Not only do I think “Patton Oswalt” is one of the funniest people alive (I think this about the real Patton Oswalt, too), but he’s also clearly a brilliant guy who does not put up with bullshit or idiots. I am a writer of bullshit who acts like an idiot during interviews. I was terrified.
So, of course, the difficulty I usually have when trying to come up with questions was made so very much worse, because every minute that I couldn’t think of a question added another level of “Oh, dear God, Patton Oswalt is going to think I’m an asshole” terror to my psyche.
Oh, and have I mentioned that I’ve actually met Patton Oswalt before? I acted like an asshole then, too. I gushed and giggled and my body actually shook – bad enough that Patton was like, “Why are you shaking?” – and then I ran away like a freak.
No, that didn’t help, either.
On the bright side, this was a phone interview, and when I met Patton Oswalt, it was years ago before I even had this job, so the odds of him connecting my voice to my ridiculous-but-brief encounter with him were slim.
But that didn’t stop my brain from being an asshole.
You cannot act like an asshole when you talk to him this time.
Yeah, I know.
No, seriously. Do you have any idea how stupid you looked last time?
He’s not going to be looking at me this time.
You’re missing the point.
No, I am willfully ignoring the point.
You mean the point that if you act like an asshole this time, you stop being the dorky, overexcited fan and begin being the incompetent journalist who can barely function yet is somehow still employed?
Yes. I am willfully ignoring that point.
So I tried to prepare as best I could.
Or, at least, I had planned to prepare as best I could.
And then his publicist called me half an hour early.
Shit.
Shit shit shit.
Now, I’d love to tell you that when finally faced with the sink-or-swim situation, I overcame my fears and pulled it off and that Patton Oswalt will now always think of me as the sassy, capable journalist who was a delight to talk to.
God, how I’d love to tell you guys that.
I blanked.
Horribly.
At least twice, I actually lost my train of thought and there was about 30 seconds of silence.
And, also, it was clear that Patton was more interested in talking about his comedy tour and his CD release, but because I was panicking, I kept asking about a TV show he was recently on.
He was on it once.
For about three minutes.
I kept asking him about details of the show that he had no knowledge of.
I kept looking at the timer on my voice recorder and I hadn’t even passed five minutes yet.
Also, I stuttered and stammered throughout the whole thing.
This is not an exaggeration. It really went this badly.
I finally made it to about ten minutes and decided to just cut my losses and get off of the phone. But it doesn’t end there.
I still had to listen to the recording again so I could type up a transcript.
Now, I didn’t notice this when it was happening because I was too busy FREAKING THE FUCK OUT, but you can actually hear Patton get more and more annoyed with me, mixed in with a bit of bafflement that I could actually be this bad. When I say, “OK, thanks for talking to me, bye” you can hear his surprise-slash-relief that the interview was over so quickly.
My Carrie Underwood-loving cubicle mate was witness to me hitting my head against my desk over and over again for about five minutes.
It was bad, people. It was BAD.
Like, bad enough that I have no doubt that the second Patton Oswalt hung up the phone, the first thing he said was, “What a fucking asshole.”
But there was a slightly happy ending. As usual, even though I am terrible with people, I was able to perform my writing magic with flair, and the article does not reveal just how badly I bungled the interview itself. While it’s not remotely Pulitzer-worthy (you know, as opposed to all the OTHER articles I write as a celebrity gossip writer), it was good enough to help me remember that there is a reason I don’t get fired.
Because I’m fucking my boss.
I kid, I kid.
No, the article turned out well enough that while I wouldn’t put the whole experience in the “win” pile, it had escaped the “huge, huge loss” pile, too.
So that was nice.
Then, after work, I went out and got spectacularly smashed, so the next day when I woke up, I was so focused on not throwing up at work that I didn’t have time to think about my Patton Oswalt humiliation. And now enough time has passed that I think it’s kind of funny.
Sort of.
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